Thursday, 30 June 2011

Just For You....my Friend.....(30 June 2011,M09 Kara No Kyoukai 1)

6月28日.....中午1230左右...当我一开面子书,一看到以恩的流言说我们学校有人跳楼自杀的标题,奕阁就立即message我...这时我才恍然大悟....我们的好朋友......就这样离我们而去了。我马上去看下别人的流言,抱着怀疑的心态,结果,真的有此事。这时,百感交加的我傻眼了...我的第一个离开我的朋友。这种感觉,这种经验,真的是第一次。

朋友,我想问你,为何?

来播以下你死亡剧场的一部分,与我仍继续写的剧场的共同点吧。我们是在四年级开始认识的吧。那时,我们都被分进精英班-4K班。我们的老师-黄曼云老师,如果没有记错她把你分到坐在前面吧。那时对你的记忆模糊(应该说对当时的记忆模糊),只知道我们都有个开心的四和五年级的回忆。最记得你小的时候瞒厉害讲笑话,而且有时瞒色的。没有办法,我们当时全部都会讲,特别是以恩。到了六年级,我们继续同班-6L班。那时我就记得你跟萧哲琦(应该是这样写)坐。那时的你,看起来好像并不在意UPSR考试,天天都在玩,过着开心的日子。

到了中学,我们又同班了(虽然只是短短的一年)。那时是在Form 1时,我们都是1G班。当时,我跟盛阳坐,而你跟伟炎坐。这一年里,是我比较low的一年。记得年头时,我每次都去找你和伟炎,原因?我们当时都是6L的Gang嘛。当时下课都是和你一起(还有其他6L的)。当时最记得就是你‘帮’我制造绯闻,就因为这样被传至中学毕业...=.=

过后到了中四,你整个人变到很多。虽然你平时有点内向,可是中四时你变到非常内向。那时,要和你说话都辛苦,要撩你都难。到了中五,我(还有正民)玩出火了。本来只是玩前面几个人(包括你),可是你被一下子就发火,并把我的书给撕掉。当时真的很对不起,或许开始对你陌生了,不太懂你变到怎样。中五的你,给人感觉很tension。过后有预考那阵子没来学校,好象发生了什么事,过后听说你不想考试(SPM)了。过后拿SPM成绩时,你那了7A,而且你好像很满意(我记得你当时说已经很好了)到了中六,我只有短短那三个星期跟你同班。那时,你看起来比较好,没有酱tension,而且肥了点。过后,我就去UMP,而你继续中六。

朋友,我想问你,为何?你已经遗失了活着的目的?遗失了目标?还是想让自己解脱,让自己自由?你,给我感觉像空之境界第一章:俯仰视景,让人不明白为何。在这里送你一首歌的歌词:
Meteors, Black & Night – as the unstopping tears fell,
I was always cursing this irrational world.

Wanting to escape from this maze
With no exit,
I was wishing for freedom.

I stood on my hands and looked to the sky.
I was different from how I was yesterday.

SHINY SHINY, the stars twinkle
Into infinity.
This world… This world…
It’s so beautiful.

SHINY SHINY, the gleaming moonlight
Is filled with hope.
This world… This world…
It’s so wonderful.
Don’t you think so?

From the square sky of this distorted city,
I peeked into a sorrowful flashback.
I’m afraid

Of losing someone again, but I begin to walk.
I don’t want to be alone anymore―.

I stood on my hands and looked forward.
You were there with a smile on your face.

SHINY SHINY – if you’d realize,
We’re smiling.
This world… This world…
It’s so dear to me.

SHINY SHINY – you have a sad look
In your eyes, but
So many stars… so many stars
Are reflected there.

SHINY SHINY, the stars twinkle
Into infinity.
This world… This world…
It’s so beautiful.

SHINY SHINY, the gleaming moonlight
Is filled with hope.
This world… This world…
It’s so wonderful.
Don’t you think so?
Don’t you think so…

朋友,Rest In Peace....



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